Forbidden Love

Could it be
possibly
time to trust again?


Could it happen
in reality
that I should love again?


Not possible.
I can't.


I've been hurt
& back-stabbed.
My ability to love
has been crippled.
For life.

My broken heart

Had formed an

Iron shell. It

Cannot soften again.

Then how come
I feel drawn
to him?


Adoration & affection:
Feelings I had
denied myself
long ago.


So why do I care
what is to become
of him?

Schizophrenic

Hmmmm...I could only say I was a troubled teenager at the time!
But seriously, I wrote this when I noticed how much I've changed over the span of 3 years. I didn't really like myself at the time..

***

Are you and I the same anymore?
We look so much alike,
Yet, the difference is amazing.
Look at you
& look at me.
I've destroyed you,
Your innocence,
Your purity,
Everything.
I've changed you,
your feelings,
your thoughts.
I stole away
everything you had,
your dreams,
your ambitions.
& I'm sorry.
I'd do anything
For you now.
But is it too late?
I'd return the things
I took - any how.
I don't care what it takes.
I don't care what it costs
Coz I want you back.

I want me back!

Circle of Life

Wahby and I were sitting at the park, waiting for the rest of the group to show up...then he said something about how the tree blocking our view was suddenly naked...and so I wrote...

They crunched angrily
Beneath my feet.
Mad at nature
For their time has
Come to an end.

This season, the trees
Will stand naked, bare
In the bitter cold.
As their garments
Have been ripped & torn
& shredded brutally
Against their will.

Now there is room
For the new, soft
& fresh green clothing.

It's all part of the
Circle of life.
We die & rot in
The earth & leave
Space for the imports
Sent in women's wombs.

Never Coming Back

Never coming back to you
Never returning

I shouldn't
I can't
& I won't

You're part of the past
Not the present
Not the future

You're in denial
Messed up
Tortured soul

Snap out of it
Face the truth
It hurts, I know
Face reality

We are one no-more
We are together no-more
& I know you're sore.

And I'm sorry.

Crazy Daisy

At some point, maybe year 10, I was high on "laughter" and my best buddy and I were having the time of our lives...sneaking out and making fun of everyone we know - for no reason...good old days!

***

They say she's insane
& out of her mind.
They say she's crazy.
But they really envy
Miss crazy daisy.

They wanna be
like her: care-free,
The queen of madness,
Who knows no sadness.

They're jealous coz
She's happy
And they're not.
She laughs
And they cry.
She lives on
& they die.

She feels no hate,
Believes in fate.
Won't ever deceive you
Never betray you.

They're hopeless
Their life is depressing.
And their feelings
They keep suppressing.

They don't understand
Beauty comes from within
Death will play
& you can't win.

Strength is that of
your will.
Time will never
stand still.

They envy her
She is unique.
She is mystique.
Crazy Daisy

She is immortal
From the sky
One of a kind.
She is I.

Desperate Measures

I had a falling out with my parents...coz they didn't want me to date anyone...and of course, like any teenager, I got pissed and did it anyway - but only after I wrote this...

Paranoid, desperate
Hysterical, horrified.
Thats what they are,
Blind to the facts,
Terror-stricken.
Frantic.

Stubborn, inflexible
& unreasonable.
Absurd, unjustifiable.
The truth will be ignored.
They are quite ridiculous.
Thats what they are.

You don't understand.
You don't know.
Too immature.
Still inexperienced.
Thats what they said

Incriminating
Condemning
Accusing.
And I, with no
convincing excuse:
I am defenseless.

I collapse into despair.
It's unbearable.
Unbelievable.
Mortal...predictable enough.
No support
No aid.

Thats what they are
Thats what they said
Thats what they did
Thats what happened
     to me.

Wounded, hurt
Depressed.
Pessimistic, angry
Oppressed.
Furious & raving mad.
yet calm....
     somehow.

Alone

Never date
Don't be late
By home by ten.
'Alright,' see you then!

Control.
Do this. Do that.
They still believe
I'm a little girl
No opinion
No say at all.

I'm growing up
Becoming me.
Leave me alone.
Let me be.

This is my future
You have to understand.
It's beyond your reach
Out of your hand.

You can't control
I'm sorry.
Not anymore.
I'm not as immature
As before.

You gotta treat me right

Losen up, forget being tight.

I need to deal
With the world
& it's demands
Alone.

I need to venture
into the unknown
explore, experience.
Alone.

I'm growing up
I ain't your little
girl anymore.
No. Not anymore.

The Focus of My Affection

I wrote this one on behalf of one of my close friends...the girl he was in love with was not Reem though - I just needed a name to rhyme!

***

Star light, my wishing star
So bright, yet so far.

I wish upon you at night
As soon as I glimpse your light.

All I wish is to
Possess her heart
You know I fell in love
From the very start.

I wish she'd just
murmur my name
Until she does,
My heart is aflame.

I see hope in her
chocolate brown eyes
That are as beautiful
as the night skies.

I love the way she
vanishes in my embrace.
And in my chest
buries her face.

I love her soft touch
I've never felt anything as such

She can read my mind
And say the words I never find.

They say "Things aren't always what they seem"
Thats true, with the exception of my love, Reem.

Reminiscing for escape

I guess traumatizing events can screw with a teenagers head.

***

I remember how
I used to be.
When life was
Such a great mystery.

I was a child,
Back then.
& I'd do anything
To be the same again.

You could see it
In my eyes,
So innocent &
Never told lies.

That curious look
Never left my face.
Which reflected
Much purity & grace.

I used to be
Fragile & delicate,
In need of someone
Ever so affectionate.

Back then, I
Was only eight
& never anxious
About my fate.

With a feverish
imagination,
Living to no one's
expectation.

Yet, at some point
Everything changed.
Suddenly I found
myself just caged.

Someone stole
My smile away
& I never got it
back till today.

It's gone just
Like the rest:
The things that were
The very best.

Now a butterfly,
Dying for liberty.
Trying to escape
My doomed destiny.

Don't want to be
Imprisoned anymore
      Set me free
           Let me be
                  as before.

Anything

Ahhhh young love :) I was quite the romantic back in the day.

***

If I could have anything

I wouldn't wish for treasures untold,

            riches; silver or gold.

I wouldn't wish for beauty or fame,

I would only want you to whisper my name.

If I could have anything

It wouldn't be to ace every test,

          succeed & become the best.

Having you near would satisfy me,

And together we'd fulfill our destiny.

If I could have anything

It would be a moment by

        the ocean blue, under the starry sky.

On the soft beach we would lie

Where hopes & dreams never die.